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I am very excited and very stressed all wrapped up in one. It has been a week of difficult situations, with some bittersweet moments thrown in.
On one hand everything looks lovely and on the other frightful.
My weekend on the other hand was pure bliss (
except for my oral trauma that is still much pain). I enjoyed my daughters & my Hubby. We ate out a lot, did some shopping and enjoyed the beautiful weather on Saturday. We laughed a lot, and had great conversations. One of those rare weekends where everyone was happy at the same time.
I have been unemployed for 26 weeks now. That's six months... Hard to fathom. We have managed, but it has been tight. I scrimp where I can and have managed to continue to help the girls with college expenses as well as a mountain of "unexpected" bumps. I have been so discouraged. I pump out several applications per week. Can you imagine how unwanted one feels, email after email, with the,
thank you BUT... It makes me crazy! I hadn't even gotten an interview. Well, that isn't exactly true... I did get a phone interview but that must not have gone as well as I thought, and was cut from the short list.
I did get an opportunity recently and grabbed it with both hands, to get noticed and even a real interview. I felt good about it...for the most part. The interview was brief and to the point. I had two people asking me questions, and one interpreter (
my interviewers are both Deaf & although I know ASL, having the interpreter was wonderful knowing exactly what is being said). I was told a decision would be made within 2 weeks & I would be notified then. I sent my Thank You emails for the interview & opportunity, and now I am waiting...
it's day 7.
Don't you hate waiting?
I am so impatient.
What's worse is I want this job so badly. They need me as much as I need them.
This is a wonderful job for me and I know I can succeed with it.
I once held this very position...twenty-some years ago. Sometimes, I wish I did not quit, but, I did to raise my children. It was the right thing to do at the time & we are Blessed that I was able to be a Stay At Home Mommy.
But now, here I am.
Many years later...many jobs later.
In all my years, this was THE JOB.
It wasn't a high paying one.
It wasn't an opportunity to grow to higher positions one.
BUT..
It was a rewarding job.
It was a challenging job.
It was a job where I was able to make a difference, and was able to empower others.
Twenty-some years later, I am in contact with several of the children (
now adults) that were in my care. The kind words they give me about what I was to them make me realize that was my calling. I am such a people person. I need to comfort, to teach, to empower, to love. Children, Adults, Seniors, Animals. I am a lover. My heart is always out there.
Now, as I wait, thoughts swim through my brain. Will I be as good? Will I be as much as an asset?
The wait continues. I will keep looking and keeping my options open. If this isn't the job, I will find one. Hopefully, one that I can love and be a strong team member until I am ready to retire.
Fingers crossed...prayers welcomed... lets get good news this week♥