perspective

Perspective ~ "a particular attitude toward or way of regarding something; a point of view."

~sometimes you need to change your perspective to see things differently~

I need to write. I miss it desperately. It gives me clarity.  I have decided that because of perspective... not everyone is going to get me. That's okay.  I hope that those I love, and love me, can look past things they see differently and perhaps can allow me to write my heart & mind. Not worry about someone misunderstanding me.  Frankly, if those that love me understand me, then why should I worry?

Anyway... I want to start up again. For me.

Life is good lately.
Far from perfect, but I don't think perfect exist.

Things are interesting.
Changing, evolving, and thought provoking.

A year ago, five years ago, or ten years ago... I thought things would be very different today.
Life at 52. Not quite what I envisioned. A few surprises along the way. I don't mean in a negative way, or even a positive way.  Just not what I had imagined.

I'm happy. But I am also sad.  I have learned over the past few years that is okay. As long as there is a balance.
Menopause, aging, working and living... I am learning to have a new perspective on my life.

I feel this is right. Accepting some changes.  Standing up against some that are not alright with me.

My clock is ticking. Time is slipping away.  Where did yesterday go? And why have the years flown so quickly?  I am starting realize that some dreams are not going to be met. And some new wonders have filled in their places.  It is okay. Sometimes scary, and sometimes exciting.

My life.

It's not over yet.

I have time to make a difference.

Taking a Breath

The past few weeks are swirling by. I never seem to find the time to sit down and write anymore. I run 24/7 and when I do stop, my head crashes into the pillow and I sleep.
I have had some wonderful breaks, time spent with the Hubby, my Girls, and my Dear Besties. But as for reading and writing time... I have not been able to make that happen.

 Having a week off from work will free up some 50 hours. I requested 3 books from the library. That will give me some serenity. I have a few appointments to take my Dad and some paperwork, phone work and leg work with Dad's business. That will keep me busy. My Hubby needs me to assist in a few things. Check.. got that covered.  My youngest daughter will be home from College for Thanksgiving Break as of Wednesday.. {yay Baby Girl time!} I look forward to catching up with her as she has been such a busy little Bee. Thanksgiving is here! Oh boy... I will have 6 - 16 for dinner Thursday. While frustrating to not have an exact count, such is family plans. I am just Blessed to keep busy as this is the first holiday since Mom's death.  Not only do I need to keep steady for myself but I want Dad to be okay through it.  Christmas shopping will start as well as Birthday shopping for my oldest {can she really be turning 24?}. I am finally getting well from a strange skin and eye infection.  Another week and I may be able to wear contacts and makeup for the first time in ...well, too long.  I'm making an appointment for my Pommie, Dakota to get a haircut as well as I have made an appointment for myself to rid myself of my long straight graying hair, trading in this Church Lady look for something with a little kick and style.  I am needing a little pick me up and a fresh look will help.  I also have a little big something else up my sleeve that I am not ready to spill out, it's a good thing, but a private thing.  Nonetheless... keeping me very very busy as well.

I have taken some steps back from social media lately.  It gets so overwhelmingly full of negativity. I "aint got no time for that".  Nor the energy. Also, with Deer Season in full swing here in Indy... this Bambi loving Gal really does not want to see everyone's kill shots, gutting shots, and glory shots.
No thank you...

Another sad note... I haven't had as much time for reading my favorite blogs.  Yesterday, I stole a few morning moments with a cup of Joe, and dived into blog reading.  TWO of my favorite reads have gone private!  :(  These two extraordinary Gals have such a knack for making me smile and enjoy the reads.  I must email them asap to get invited into the groups.  They are two of my favorites and I so hope to get back in as I have been following for far too many years to go cold turkey without my doses of laughter with them.

I want to write some more letters!  I started this "hobby" recently and the joy of receiving them back is absolutely delicious!  Also brings me such a smile thinking of friends receiving a letter the old fashion way, from me.

I spent a wonderful weekend with my two best friends. I want to write a post on it, but will leave you with this picture for now.  I must say, it was just what the Doctor ordered for me.  It was simply Divine!

Deb, Jan, Sher Besties 2012
 

I'm Back!!!

I am back! After a lengthy hiatus, I am determined to make time for this blog. We all have many things that keep us busy, but the purpose of this blog for me was to help me to have a therapeutic release, to enjoy the beauty of writing, and to remember to breathe! I need a release and this helps.

My crazy life is just going to have to give me a ten minute break now and then to write.

Tick Tock

Is anyone else slightly freaked out how time is flying by so quickly? I mean, I remember my elders saying, "enjoy youth, one day time will fly!" I remember thinking, "Yeah, right!". But here I am constantly saying, "Oh my Gosh! How did it get so late?" Or, "Yikes! I need 5 more hours today!".

It would help if I could be a little more organized. Time management, that's what I need. Or maybe just a couple more hours per day!

Living in Indiana, we recently joined in on Daylight Savings Time. Whatever, it's confusing, then weird to be daylight @ 9pm. It doesn't give me more time.

I probably would be alright if I just slowed down instead of taking more & more on. I can not seem to say, "enough!" Or even, "I 'll pass on that!" I have too much going on & therefore, forget to make time for what is really important. You would think I would learn by now.

I am going to try to slow down & enjoy... I just don't have time today, maybe I will start tomorrow.