Wednesday, April 20, 2011

hammered

Last night I got hammered. 
Not the drunk kind. 
The emotional WTF ~ didn't see that coming kind.  
My head is swimming in thoughts... 
how... why... when... what. 
I am trying to stay claim and use the wonderful coping skills I have learned over the past couple of years. 

I have been praying really hard, 
and I am trying to pray the right way. 
Not asking to make this all go away, 
asking for guidance and understanding. 
Asking for my head to be clear and my heart strong.

I am putting my "Big Girl Panties" on, 
and dealing with what is at hand.

I don't have time to have a pity party.

Tears flow, but I am stronger than I give myself credit for.

Sometimes, it is difficult to understand why some are forced into difficult situations.  
It's hard not to get upset or even jealous.  
I must trust that all things have a reason. 
I must trust that God would not give me more than I can handle.

love jan

8 comments:

JC said...

My hope for you is that you can figure things out and have a plan. Email me if you want ...

Judy Miller said...

Prayers are being said for whatever the trouble is. My Mom always quoted "that which does not kill you makes you stronger". Some times I wish God didn't want to make me stronger. The going thru any trouble is awful but it does make us stronger.

Mark Pressley said...

Breathe

Reality Jayne said...

Sounds like prayers are in order....i'm on it, Janis

dopenbri said...

We never know what's going to happen in our life. But with a good family and friends we can get through anything. I'll be praying for you and your family!
Your old friend Lee

Linda said...

I have those times more than you'll ever know. ♥

Hoping everything is better today.
Love to you always,
Linda

Vanna said...

Everything always works out! I am here to be your love and faith and keep you from gravities harm ;)

Ziongirl said...

girlfriend....I am calling your name in on the Temple Prayer Roll ASAP. Love ya,♥