Saturday, August 1, 2009

What I Feel

Happy. Sad... Loved. Hated... Excited. Frightened... Skilled. Awkward... Calm. Anxious... Baffled. Satisfied.

Emotional.

I am an emotional mess. I never know what will strike me.

Will I be in a good mood? Or will I be sad?

Am I going to be a Bitch? Or a Saint?

Whine Whine Whine.

Poor me.

I know that much has to do with Menopause. It also has to do with my depression. Throw in finances, relationships, stress, and stability and you have my life.

What is so crazy is it is such a roller coaster.

I feel that it is up to me to make the best of each situation. To take what I get and make it good. Turn my frown into a smile.

My motto has always been, "You get what you get, so, don't throw a fit". It is up to you to make what you want out of every situation and opportunity.

I don't always suceed. Sometimes I am in the company of people that are so negative it is difficult to see past. That is when I work harder and hope that I will turn more than one frown upside down.

I am Blessed to have my religion, family and friends. Without them it would all be pointless. It is because of them I "pick myself up, brush myself off, and start all over again", when it gets tough.


2 comments:

Mark said...

You are not alone. I have several people in my life that ride the same roller coaster as you. I have told them for years to "Just Breathe" That title is awesome.

I can not pretend to understand your pain nor the pain my loved ones feel only to tell you all I wish it wasn’t there.

A human kind of human said...

I identify 100%. This is exactly what drove me to blogging! (See my first post). It just sometimes feels as if the earth is spinning faster and faster and there is no way of getting off for a break.