I was uptight, nervous, and short of breath. As Christmas was looming I was fretting. Would this Holiday be as disastrous as Thanksgiving? Was I going to be a tearful emotional mess again? Or was I going to be okay this Holiday?
With prayer, I woke with a gentle warmth in my heart and a strength in my soul. I was okay with this Holiday.
The day flowed with funny mishaps but no pain.
I burnt the ham... I burnt the corn.... I burnt the rolls. Seriously? Who does that? I NEVER burn things. But my sweet Family laughed with me and ate it.
Dad had a spike in his blood sugar. A very high spike... But with insulin we got him back to normal.
|jan annie sheri 12.25.12|
The weather held back. Giving us a warm day perfect for transporting Dad to my house. Waiting to bring us the beautiful snow the next morning. We got a beautiful display of white blanket, along with wicked winds. The snow photograph at the top of the post, is of a snow overhang from our roof. So pretty.
My Mom was all around me this Christmas.
|sis mom me...a few years back|
I was able to enjoy this Christmas.. and that is huge.
I miss my Mom. I miss the good times, not the manic.
But, it's all good. I'm able to breathe, I'm able to exhale.