Saturday, November 3, 2012

the movie part 2

morning has broken
I know I have been MIA too much... Trust me, I miss writing as well as reading. How sad that I haven't made time for something I am passionate about as well as is therapeutic. Lord knows I need something therapeutic.
So stinking much has happened.
So very much to express.
I don't know how I will ever be able to catch up.  It will be best if I just dive in and catch up with things along the way.

Thursday evening, I made a frantic rush to meet an ambulance at a hospital that I am not familiar with.
While there I met a rather wise nurse, needing to interview myself and Sister. The nurse was trying to gather needed information as she was accessing our Father, who was here because of a rather traumatic,  dramatic, no make that selfish choice of suicide attempt.  I realize she was more than surprised ...she was baffled, as we answered her questions and poured out a mini version of his life and how he arrived here. 
Body language.
I have learned much about body language from working with the Deaf and learning ASL. 
The nurse leaned in closer and closer..eyes widened and jaw dropping.  At one point, she said, this is a movie! It's truly an unbelievable story of your survival. I have heard so much but this...this is just a movie."

Afterwards, Julie said she would like to start collaborating with me to write our story. It isn't a movie.  It's the story of my life.

 I need to write.  It is what it is. Writing keeps me strong. It helps me to know that I am a survivor.  That I am okay.

I wont be able to re-capture the moments that I missed. But I will try to go back and explain some things to help you understand how I got here at this point.

All is good.  I'm okay.  I am one tough cookie.

5 comments:

rosaria williams said...

Hugs!

lesworknow said...

What can you control ? It is not other people. Certainly not your father. What can you control ? It must be yourself. You control how you react. You control that quite well.
That might be a blessing in disguise.
Write.
Write on Janis. Write your heart.
Even a little bit of your heart is something to write about.
Blessings and prayers for you and your dad. :)

Julie Harward said...

YOU ARE A TOUGH COOKIE AND A VERY BEAUTIFUL ONE TOO...LIVE ON AND MAKE A HAPPY NEST FOR YOU AND YOURS..GOD WILL BLESS YOU WHEN THERE IS LOVE AT HOME. :)

Mimi Sue said...

Writing is such a great tool to get things that are inside to the outside. Take the time and do it for you. You are worth it. Mimi

Vanna said...

Dear Cousin, I know you are going through a lot, I can see it on Facebook and now again on here. I just want you to know that I am thinking about you all the way here in Good Ole Texas.

Everything will come together for you.

Much Love,
Vanna