Friday, April 8, 2011

objects in mirror are closer than they appear

The safety warning is there.
I know that.  I feel sadness and it is closing in on me, but I have hope that soon, I will be on the mend. I will perk back up.

You know, a funny thing. I'm in a dark place lately, trying not to be, and decide until now, not to post about it.
I kept thinking of the phrase,  "Objects in the mirror..." so while googling, I found singer "Meatloaf", has a song from the "Bat Out of Hell" album, titled "Objects in the Rear View Mirror May Appear Closer than They Are". Listening to this song, I can relate. My situations are very different, however I feel the song.


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"And though the nightmares should be over
Some of the terrors are still intact"
For me, although sadness is enveloping me, I know that hope is approaching, its slowing catching up to me, getting ready to catch me and heal me.
I won't give up, I won't let despair win. I know I have so much to be grateful & happy for.
Believe me, I know I am Blessed. However, some things, can't change just because you want them to. Some things are deeper than that.

I am a work in progress.

Sometimes, like a domino effect, it's hard to stand, when so much is pushing you down.  My need to feel adequate, and my inability to feel I am enough, get overwhelming when too much is happening at once.

Like a Blog buddy's Blog title, "Some Days are Diamonds"... and some days aren't.

13 comments:

Vanna said...

I definately know how it feels whent he gravity holding you down is keeping the love and freedom from lifting you up. I seem to feel that a lot these days. I will not give into the gravity though. I am a fighter, always was and always will be. I can overcome the strength of the enemies in my life and so can you. =) we are each others love and freedom helping one another pull free from that gravity!

Reality Jayne said...

I hope you feel better soon.. I know the feeling. Sometimes you have to work through it alone...I have been there

Linda said...

I'm sorry you're feeling like this. ♥ Hoping that better days are ahead.
Love, Linda

Lori ann said...

sending hugs +++

An English Shepherd said...

Hope things look brighter soon :-)

Mark Pressley said...

A wise girl told me a few Blogs back to "Just Breathe" good words Dr.

Erin Wallace said...

I suffer from depression and I feel for you. I would love to be able to help you out of your dark place as I hate to see anyone go there. All I can tell you is to stick close to the people who love you and Please get help if you need it. Ultimately God will get you through.

I learned this the other day: Remember, fruit grows in the valley, not on the mountain top.

janis said...

Vanna, RJ, Linda,Lori, Wizz, Mark & Erin~
Thank you so much for the love. I am breathing..promise, I also have the best Therapist & family to bring me into the lighter places. BUT~ some days are just a little harder and these are some of them. I will get through, and it is wonderful to know that positive energy & loving prayers are coming my way.

Charla @ Healthy Home Blog said...

You're in my prayers right now!
We've had a hard time financially the past couple of years. My husband and I kept looking and looking for full-time jobs but they're hard to find in this economy. I was blessed with a full-time teaching job in January which I'm so thankful for.
I have struggled and still struggle with depression. But I hold onto God as tightly as I can and remember "The joy of the Lord is my strength." I have several positive scriptures memorized and I'll say them to myself every day. I believe God will answer our prayers and my husband will get a job, and we'll be able to recover financially. I pray for those out there who are losing their jobs (a lot of teachers in Texas are) and my heart goes out to them.

B. WHITTINGTON said...

So sorry to hear of your depression. My daughter is in hosp now undergoing treatment for depression. She's been dealing with it for 15 years. We're praying that this ECT treatment will be a miracle for her. I've heard much good about it.
Praying for your quick recovery.
Blessings,
Barb

Reya Mellicker said...

You are a work in progress which is not easy - not for any of us! Sending good strong energy in your direction.

Remember to breathe?? xx

Donna B said...

I understand. Years ago, and occasionally now, darkness creeps up upon me, taps me on the shoulder and I attempt to run ahead...sometimes, unaware, it encompasses me...Mostly now, I stay ahead of it...

I hope whatever is making you sad, ends and you are happy again. I think there is a dark cloud floating above us all since the tsunami in Japan...

We must rest when we need to...but I do my best to choose happiness. May happiness fill you with light very soon...Blessings...

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